My life is changing

I can already tell a difference in just the way I see things.  For so long, I have been hiding behind my failure as a christian.  Now that I have made my short comings public, I feel like a new man.  For the first time that I can remember, it is much easier to talk about God.  Shawna and I are talking more about our christianity and where we want to go as a couple, and it suddenly just seems so easy.

Braden and I had a discussion last night and I know that he struggles with the same things I have been struggling with.  Although it wasnt a long conversation, we were able to discuss things freely and now I know where I need to try to lead him.  College is a difficult time and I'm sure temptations abound.  I just pray that Braden is making the right decisions and I pray that God will move in him the way has moved in me. I am so proud of Braden for his many accomplishments, and his perseverance through a bad semester a year ago...I pray that God is with him every day.

Ethan and i were able to discuss some of God's expectations tonight as well....and as baseball starts this week I have challenged him to pray before each practice and game that God will grant him focus and patience and that God will grant him the ability to be a good teammate and always be uplifting to everyone. I am proud of Ethan for many things as well...and i see so much  potential in him to be Godly person...I pray that God moves in him as well.

I have had on outgoing show of support from so many people and I want all of you to know how much it means to me.  I've been surprised by some of the comments that a lot of people struggle with the same things.  I know there are probably some doubters out there that may read my stories and think "yeah right"...to those people all i can say is i dont blame you.  But i am bound and determined to live the rest of my life for God...so i guess you will just have to wait and see.

I don't know why, but God has changed my life.  And it didnt take a long time to change it either.  All i had to do was open up and there he was...right where he has always been. 

I've come to the conclusion that being a good christian is a JOURNEY and not a DESTINATION. I don't think we can ever say...."I'm the best Christian I can possibly be"....I think the journey is a long one and hopefully I will grow closer to God every day.